Monday, February 21, 2011

What Can I Give?

Have you ever had those moments when you stare at a blank screen and wait, hoping some amazing burst of genius will come to you and you will have exactly the words to write? I'm having one of those moments right now. I continually come back to this blank screen and stare at it, hoping I can find the words that are amazing and inspiring and just the right words. Again and again, I leave the page blank, not writing anything. I have nothing that will inspire, nothing that will give hope or leave a mark on someone's life. I don't have answers, and I don't have anything to give. I am in this place, trying to come up with something, anything, to give that might be of worth. But that's the thing. I am trying to find something I can give that is of worth. But I don't have to bring anything. Just as I am, God takes me in. I don't have to have the right words, because God knows what is on my heart. I don't have to have all the answers, because He does. I don't have to come up with something worthy, because He just wants me, all of me. I am worthy. I don't need to wait until I have something to give, I can come as I am. As I am, empty, broken, with nothing to give. I can come and give Him my heart, give Him everything I have inside me, all of those feelings I can't put into words, all of those thoughts that haven't been voiced, all those questions I've never asked, all of those hopes and dreams and passions that lay unawakened inside of me. Like that song you usually hear around Christmas. What can I give Him, poor as I am? What can I give Him, as empty and confused and wordless as I am? Maybe when I'm full-er, maybe when I sort things out, maybe when I have the right words. But there it is, that tiny voice. Come as you are, it says. You don't have to have all the right words, just come as you are. You don't have to have anything to give, just give me your heart.
'What can I give Him, Poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd, I would bring Him a lamb
If I were a wise man, I would sure do my part
So What can I give Him?
I'll give Him my heart'

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