Fawne is an amazing woman, and I get so much encouragement out of reading her blog and hearing her story. I was so excited when she said yes to doing this interview, and I know you'll love hearing what she had to say just as much as I did.
So, tell us a little bit about you and about your life:
Hello friends. My name is Fawne and I’m an ordinary girl who likes simple things. I love to read, write and talk to friends. Truth is important to me and I’m learning to smother it in grace. I like fresh doughnuts, being warm, roses and dark brown eyes. I’m not very good in a crowd but I love small groups of people and one on one is even better. I’ve lived in seven different homes in eight years of marriage and I’ve learned to do a lot of things I never thought I could do. Most of my days consist of taking care of children, cooking and cleaning. I find little spaces of time in the early mornings and evenings when the kids are asleep to do all the things that are so necessary for my emotional and spiritual health—spending time with God and my husband, reading, writing, studying, thinking, etc.
Can you tell us a little bit about your son, Wyatt, and what God taught you through your experience being his mom?
Wyatt was born on October 30th, 2005. Shortly after he was born we discovered he had a genetic disorder called Wolf-Hirschhorn Syndrome. The doctors told us that he would probably remain a “newborn” for his entire life. And in many ways he did. He had trouble eating until we had a G-tube put in. Then he started getting sick a lot and his little body worked like clockwork. Two weeks sick, two weeks well. It was hard—really hard.
It was through the pain that God took me to a place deep, deep inside myself and to be completely honest….I didn’t want to see what was down there in the depths of my heart. It was ugly. But then the miracle happened. As my brokenness was exposed and I dealt with all the junk…I began to see God’s love in a way I never had before. I began to believe with every ounce of my being that God was madly in love with me and that there was nothing I could do to change that fact. He will always love me perfectly. God’s love is so different than human love. He uses the most odd things (odd according to my human mind) to demonstrate His love….brokenness, pain, weakness, impossible situations. I love that about God. To think that He can take something broken and ugly and transform it into stunning beauty! When you understand this concept you can’t help but want to kneel at His feet in complete surrender.
Wyatt died a couple months short of his 4th birthday. (On July 18th, 2009) We are happy that he is free and jealous that he gets to be with our Heavenly Father. He left a big empty hole that no one can ever fill but we are at peace because we have seen the goodness of God and we know that the joy He gives overshadows any amount of pain.
How did you become a Christian?
My dad had just finished family devotions and my parents asked me if I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart. I can’t remember what our family devotions were about but I remember what the room looked like and the couch that I sat on. I told them that I “did want to ask Jesus to be my Savior.” I have so few memories from my younger years but that is one moment I can distinctly remember. I was six.
What is your favorite Bible verse?
I’ve never really had a favorite verse or a “life” verse. But one passage that I find myself returning to time and time again is II Corinthians 12:7-10. I love it that Paul says, “I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties…..” What perspective! I can’t ever remember hearing someone say something so bold and wonderful. That is my prayer too—I want to learn the secret of being content in any situation. I think it’s only possible when you believe that God is completely trustworthy and are confident that whatever He allows into your life He is using for good.
Can you tell us a little bit about your family? Both the one you grew up with (parents and siblings) and your husband/kids.
The old farm house where I grew up still sits on a little corner of“heaven” in Northwest Oregon. I love it there…not because of the house or the land but because of the memories. My family has lived there for a quarter of a century. The old farmhouse that was once bursting at the seams with my mama and daddy and eleven siblings now feels quite empty with only my parents and a couple of children left at home. I loved growing up as the oldest of twelve children and I’m so grateful for parents who loved Jesus and taught us to love Him too. I had many responsibilities from an early age and I’m thankful for the way that helped to prepare me to take care of my own home and family.
I was 24 when I married Ben. Life with him has been an adventure and I’ve loved every minute of it—the good, the bad and the ugly. Having a best friend to “do” life with is something that I’m sure I take for granted way too often.
Wyatt was born 1 ½ years after we were married and he was followed by two boys, Skylar and Raine. It wasn’t until after Wyatt died that we had our first girl, Miracle. We’re excited that another little one will be joining us sometime early next year.
What is one of the biggest things God has taught you in your life?
Right now I would have to say it’s about the beauty of weakness. As I mentioned I grew up the oldest of twelve children. I had to be self-sufficient from an early age and I began to view weakness as something to despise. In fact I hated it…especially in myself. Then when God took me on a journey that was too difficult for me to handle He taught me that weakness is one of His greatest gifts to mankind. It’s through weakness that I see myself for who I really am. Needy. Broken. Unable. And until I see that truth, I can never be fully healed. I long for God’s people to see and understand that it’s often in the valley of the shadow of death that God does His most magnificent work. It’s there that we discover the miracle.
What is your passion, and how has that played a role in your life?
I want God’s people (the church) to understand how much God loves us. I want believers to know the joy that comes from intimate relationship with God. This is my passion. My calling. To encourage Christians (especially women) to believe that they are fiercely loved by the God who created them and to experience the freedom that comes when you know deep down that you are perfectly loved.
If you could say one thing for everybody reading this to remember, what would it be?
That is a tough question.
The thought that keeps coming back to me over and over is this:
Jesus loves you. Yes, Jesus loves you!
Once you grasp that truth it changes everything…..
Thanks so much for doing this, Fawne. It was a privilege to have you on the blog.