On Saturday morning, 4 guys from the high school in GP were killed in a car crash.
2 of the guys in my close friend group, as well as a couple of other people I know, knew the guys that were killed that day.
Like I said, there are few things harder for me then seeing my friends hurting and being able to do nothing.
It's hard to know they are hurting, and to see the pain in their eyes, and not be able to do anything to stop it.
It makes me think, about how nobody ever knows where they might end up, or when their life will end. I'm sure when those guys woke up they weren't thinking they were going to die. But it happened.
For some reason this hits close to home. Maybe because the guys were only 15 and 16, barely older then me. Maybe because I've seen the hurt in the eyes of the ones left behind. I didn't know them, but I know people who did. I've heard stories of how great these guys were. They were real, and they laughed and they loved.
I hate being helpless to stop the hurt that the ones I love are feeling. I hate not knowing what to say, or what to do, or how to be there, or even if I should be.
It's almost as if our entire town is grieving. On the way home from pottery today, I noticed the flags were at half mast.
So my heart hurts. My heart hurts because these teenagers died so young. My heart hurts because I've looked into the eyes of the ones who knew them, the ones left behind. My heart hurts because 2 of those people were a few of the people that I love the most, and I hate to see them hurting.
I hate seeing my friends hurting and not being able to do something to fix it.