Thursday, January 19, 2012

Not a perfect girl...

I'm a normal person. I guess when I'm reading other people's blogs I think "Are they really that happy, that optimistic, that... perfect?" I'm definatly not a bright, shiny, perfect person. I'm real, I'm a teenager, I mess up, I say things I don't mean, I fight with my siblings and I yell at my parents. I've been having a rough little while. I've had symptoms flare up, been to see doctors, had more medical tests ordered and am studying for finals. I've been irritable and moody but none of that justifies what I did. I got mad over something that now seems so stupid, which was sitting in the middle seat in the back of the truck. I was upset, I'd sat in the middle yesterday. So I did what all stressed, irritable teenagers do (at least I hope I'm not the only one!) and yelled, at pretty much anyone who would listen. I can't even remember everything I said, ahem yelled, but all the anger I had, the frustrations I felt, even if it wasn't related to this middle seat incident, it all came out. I was told to stop, but I didn't. I went on, pushing it one step further. I was mad, and so I got consequences (Part of which you'll find out is writing this blog post) I did, eventually, get in the car, and even in the middle seat. Just goes to show you that 1. I am so not a perfect girl who has it all together. and 2. actions have consequences. so I was having a bad day/ bad couple of days. I still screwed up and didn't have the right to take all my anger out on my family.
"Failure doesn't mean you fail as a person, it means you're growing."




warning: I had to write this post as punishment. nothing I say can be used against me in a court of law

6 comments:

Trinka said...

Yuppers, you're SOOOO not the only one :P I do that all the time...
Haha, I loved that little note at the bottom :)

Princess said...

You are really not the only one. I struggle when there are so many days where there are tons of little things and then I just blow up at someone who is doing nothing.

Sarah Elizabeth said...

Hey Alisha! You've been tagged! It's your turn to post 11 things about yourself and answer 11 random questions. Details on my blog.

Tess said...

Oh gosh, I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who has days like that! :)

Nicole said...

THANK YOU!!! That's all. ;)

Well, actually, I feel kind of bad that we're celebrating the fact that we're not the only ones who blow it and aren't the perfect little girls...but it's so great to finally hear someone else say something like, "I'm not a bright, shiny, perfect person." I know what you mean, reading people's perfect blogs, and I'm thinking..."wow, I wish my blog was like that". But then I don't even post because I'm afraid that my blog post won't measure up...to whatever there is that I think I have to measure up to.

Yeah, a little perfectionism quirk of mine. OK, more like a huge fear that could totally ruin every corner of my life if I submit to its total deceptiveness. But if and when I turn to Jesus and realize that what He thinks of me is the thing that only really matters...that's when I can actually be real...because, Christ? He's totally real. ;)

So, this turned out to be more than a 'that's all'. ;) Ah, well. Thanks again for the totally honest post, even if it was a punishment. I like the note. ;) Love ya! <3

Jocelyn said...

love the quote!<3